love and the poet

love, as in falling-in-love,
no longer exists for me.
not fondness, not affection.
not any of it.

I simply don’t believe in it.

and I see no value in considering it deeply.
I find no meaning in it
of any kind, no usefulness or purpose.

not curiosity,
not nostalgia.

no interest in it
as a plot element,
or a conflict
or a trope
or a character arc
or the subject of a poem.

have I loved?
of course, and now I renounce it.
for good.

no-love makes it hard to be a writer or a poet. what is left to write about?




I suppose there are still some themes.

you’d never know it by skimming the shelves of bookstores. it’s all love, love and more love.

it makes it hard even to be a reader.

no Jane Austin.
Shakespeare. meh.

I’m trying not to be pessimistic.

it’s not as if I can do anything about it—about the fact that no-love
makes half (or more) of all literature incomprehensible and foreign. false.

I guess my job now is to find out what I still do believe in.

find those poets who understand me, who understand that falling-in-love is just a chemical trip.

there are other kinds of love.
I will write about them.


some small creatures, like moths,
are born the color of bark or dead leaves,
so they can eat or avoid being eaten.
how honest is that?
it’s no different
than the way a strategically placed mirror
can make a room seem bigger,
or how deception and survival align
when I must smile and say I’m fine.

{the dVerse prompt which inspired this poem is the word mirror}

pay attention

the voice is ancient and familiar,
belonging to school days,
bouncing off the walls of the gym
like end of day announcements
from the principal,
or the bright ping
of a red, rubber four-square ball
entering your zone
when you’re looking the other way.

{Almost a quadrille. I’m counting the hyphenated words as a single word. I knowww …that’s breaking the rules a little, but it’s a poem not algebra, so I hope I’m forgiven. Inspired by a fun prompt from dVerse.}


what does it mean
to stand or not stand?
who decides justice, or mercy?
a sandwich lies on the plate, half-eaten,
a song half-sung,
a crime half-committed.
souls rise up from the earth,
and from small clay jars on the mantel,
even from the ocean.
pets also, and cobras,
and circus elephants who ceased
their performances
a half-century ago.
today is the day of new beginnings,
surely not of endings?

an uncommon request

She was serious as she approached the counter. Her voice was soft and low. “I need to know”, she said.  Then, hesitating a little, she asked if I could tell her about the dragon. Her eyes never met mine.

I know dragons, and I know people, but once in a while, they both surprise me.

She entered my shop during the winter slump, the week after all the tourists had gone, and the locals were at home preparing for the ill weather. She took a small flask from the shelf and filled it halfway with dragon tears from the spigot in the back.

Dragons don’t cry, making this a rare and expensive item. I watched her. I know every customer by name. She was new.

It was an uncommon request. No one cares about dragons. People think they know everything they need to know about dragons. Most of what they know is wrong, and when you try to tell them differently, they get angry. They stop listening. They walk away and never return.

“This one lived alone, as most do,” I told her. “The tears were extracted while he slept. He was suffering from allergies, which meant a runny nose, and tears.” I found her curiosity refreshing.

“Thank you,” she replied. “This will be put to good use,” she assured me.

I was silent. She continued, still staring somewhere behind my left ear, “Did this dragon have a hoard? He must have. How much were they able to take, seeing that he was sleeping?”

I was beginning to get nervous. Shop owners are sworn to secrecy. Was she a spy? Was this a test?

Something about the way she stared deeply into the space behind my head, and the way her eyes were puffed and pinkish around the edges, softened me.

“He had a hoard of books,” I said. I explained how unusual this was, and how unappreciated. Unrewarding for dragon hunters, except for the tears.

She straightened, seemed taller. I wouldn’t dare ask why she needed dragon tears, and it turns out I didn’t have to. She began describing her life. Her loves and her fears. And how the one item she was forbidden to truly enjoy as she wished was a good book.

I had heard of forbidden dancing, forbidden drinking, forbidden love, but I had never heard this in all my years.

But then, no one had heard of dragon tears either. Or a dragon that hoarded books. That was more odd than the tears themselves. Odd, and, to most, disappointing.

“These will be put to good use. I promise.” She smiled. It was barely a half-smile, but a smile nonetheless.